Thursday, September 8, 2016

TJ's Birthday Prayer


MY 13TH BIRTHDAY PRAYER

DEAR LORD,
          THANK YOU FOR ALL THE BLESSINGS YOU HAVE GIVEN EVERYTHING FOR ME, A BIG HOUSE, AN EXPENSIVE SCHOOL FOR BETTER EDUCATION WHEN I GROW UP, MY NEEDS, TOYS, BOOKS, TECHNOLOGY EQUIPMENT, AND MORE, THAT EVEN MY PARENTS NEVER HAD A CHANCE TO HAVE THOSE THINGS WHEN THEY WERE A KID.

AS A CHILD, I THANK YOU FOR ALL THAT YOU HAVE GIVEN ME SO FAR, MANY GIFTS AND MIRACLES. WITHOUT YOU, WHAT WOULD MY LIFE BE RIGHT NOW? SINCE YOU WERE THE ONE WHO GAVE ME A KIND AND LOVING HEART THAT IN MANY OLDER BROTHERS OF THE WORLD ARE ALWAYS VERY BAD TO THEIR YOUNGER SIBLINGS BUT YOU CREATED ME TO DO SOMETHING DIFFERENTLY. I WAS CREATED SPECIAL. IF I WERENT’T AS HELPFUL AND COMPASSIONATE TO MY SIBLINGS, ALEX, URIEL, AND KRISH, I WILL NOT GO TO HEAVEN. YOU WERE THE ONE WHO SAVED MY MOM AND DAD’S LIFE FROM DYING OR DIE WORST, BUT YOU MANAGED TO SAVE THEIR LIVES WITH INJURIES THAT I THINK YOU SERVE IT TO HAPPEN FOR A REASON OR A PURPOSE AND TO LEARN FROM IT TO CHANGE.

THERE ARE MANY THINGS I WANT TO TALK ABOUT BUT I WILL TRY TO JUMBLE OR SUMMARISE THEM ALL HERE BEFORE I BECOME A TEEN, NO LONGER A CHILD BUT NOT YET ADULT.

FOR STARTERS, THE PAST FEW DAYS OR PROBABLY A WHOLE MONTH, I KINDA OR THINK THAT THERE IS A PART OF ME THAT WANTS ME TO GROW UP TO ONE DAY HELP MY FAMILY AND MAKE A BEAUTIFUL FAMILY AND TO SERVE GOD. BUT ANOTHER PART OF ME WANTS TO THINK THAT I AM NOT YET READY TO GROW UP, TO LEAVE MY CHILDHOOD.

ALL THAT I HAVE DONE TO HELP MY MOM FROM DEPRESSION TIMES AND CHEER HER UP, TO SUPPORT MY DAD’S ACHIEVEMENTS AND TRY NOT TO GET MAD SO HE COULDN’T HURT US, TO GIVE EVERYTHING AND DEVOTING ALL MY LIFE DREAMS AS A CHILD, I GAVE IT ALL TO ALEX TO GIVE HER THE BEST LIFE THAT SHE WANTS AND NEED UNLIKE OTHER PEOPLE. TO ENCOURAGE URIEL TO ACT MATURE, TO BE A “MAN FOR OTHERS” AND TO THINK FOR AT LEAST SOMEDAY THAT HE SHOULD THINK ABOUT WHAT MUST HE DO TO LIVE HAPPILY WHEN HE DO STUDY HARD BUT SMARTNESS OR INTELLIGENCE ISN’T ALL THAT MATTERS, IT IS FAMILY - LOVING THEM AND CARING FOR THEM WITH GOOD DEEDS. GOD DOESN’T LOOK THROUGH THE MIND, BUT THROUGH THE HEART. AND LASTLY,TO MAKE SURE KRISH,ONE DAY OR SOMEDAY GOING TO LEAVE AND I HOPE MAY FIND A KIND BUT RICH HUSBAND AND HAVE THE HEART THAT HAVING CHILDREN ISN’T A BAD THING AT ALL OR SHE MIGHT REGRET IT SOMEDAY, AND TO CHANGE HER HEART THAT LIFE MATTERS...IT IS A TEST, NOT FOR GAMES, AND LIFE CAN’T BE REMOVED BY SOMEONE EXCEPT GOD.

THE REASON WHY WE ARE STILL ALL ALIVE RIGHT NOW IS BECAUSE GOD HAS A BIG AND GREAT PLANS FOR US IN THE FUTURE AND WE JUST CAN SEE HOW CAN OUR LIFE NOW BECOME THAT IN THE FUTURE THAT GOD WILL FULFILL OUR DREAMS IF WE STICK OUR TRUST AND FAITH IN HIM AND NEVER GIVE UP.

EVERYDAY I FEEL SAD THAT SOMEDAY I WILL NO LONGER BE A CHILD, BUT I KNOW GOD HAS A BIG PLANS AND IT IS TRYING TO GET CLOSER AND CLOSER TO US BUT WE MUST WAIT WITH A PATIENT HEART, THAT I CRY, SOB,AND MOURN ABOUT WHAT I MISSED SO FAR.

I DIDN’T MISS ANYTHING IN WHAT I MUST DO BUT I DID MISS MY TIME FOR REST. EVERYDAY,I EXPERIENCE HARSH AND DIFFICULT TIMES THAT EVEN AT SCHOOL GOD IS TESTING ME IF I WILL BE A BIG SINNER JUST LIKE MY CLASSMATES, BUT FOR 8 YEARS I MANAGE TO RESIST THE TEMPTATION SATAN IS HOPING FOR ME TO GO TO HELL, BUT I KNOW THAT I HAVE A STRONG FAITH AND RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD THAT SOMEDAY I WILL THANK HIM.

AT HOME, SOMETIMES, SOMETHING BAD HAPPENS. A FIGHT, INJURY, DISRUPTION, AND MORE THAT I TRY MY BEST TO STOP BUT NEVER DID THEY SAY THANK YOU TO ME WITH A “KUSA” HEART, BUT I HOPE ONE DAY THEY WILL, IF THEY ONLY SEE IT, BUT NOT FEEL THAT I AM LIKE GOD TO THEM. JUST THERE, WAITING FOR THE ANSWER THAT I WISH I GET BUT GOOD DEEDS MATTER, NOT POPULARITY OF GRATEFULNESS.

THEY DO SAY THEY THANK ME AND YES I BELIEVE THEM SINCE I AM ALWAYS HONEST AND NOT KEEPING ANY SECRETS WITH THEM AND BECAUSE THEY ARE IN DEED MY LOVING FAMILY AND THAT THEY SAY I AM ALSO NOT GRATEFUL FOR WHAT THEY GIVE ME. I ALSO MADE THAT MISTAKE AND I AM SORRY LORD THAT I JUST WANT THAT THEY SHOULD AT LEAST NOT GET EVEN MADDER SINCE THEY GOT MORE STRESSFUL AND ANGRY EVER SINCE WE HAD MOVED. TO END THIS, I WANT TO SAY I THANK AND LOVE YOU TOO LORD FOR ALL THE CHALLENGES YOU HAVE MADE ME WENT THROUGH AND I CAN’T WAIT THAT SOMEDAY, I WILL BE WITH YOU.

THANK YOU LORD!

IN JESUS NAME I PRAY, AMEN AND AMEN!!!

                                                 -TJ 

WRITTEN ON SEPTEMBER.2,2016




RoNaLdO oJaStRo TaLaGtAg Jr.

Ronaldo Ojastro Talagtag Jr.


I LOVE YOU DADDYKRISH/KRISHIE/KRISHYURIELTEDDY!ALEX!MOMMY/MOM PO!, MYSELF!,AND JESUS!!!
 cake from goldilocks (rocky road flavor for 3,800 pesos)

 balloon decoration from party pals ph (check their instagram account)






 large teepee in heavy duty canvas (cost 7,500 pesos) and beanie from pottly n tubby (for 3,750 pesos), our gift to TJ
to Jesus, his life, we surrender :-)

Note: i saw this letter typed in my computer, and i asked TJ's permission to post it here ...all photos here we're taken on the day of his bday :-)


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